I’m Not a Slacker

I get a vacation this weekend!! Tomorrow night me and a buddy of mine are packing up his camper and heading downstate for a campout/float trip and right when I get back on Sunday I will be going to a baseball game with my parents and a brother to be named later. It should be a fun weekend.

Aubrey and I try to give each other breaks as often as we can but I always seem to have Gavin in the back of my mind. If I hang out with the guys on Tuesday night I still have to get up with Gavin in the morning and since Aubrey works all week long the weekends are the only time she gets to do her thing, so I tend to feel guilty about going out and doing my own thing. One reason could be that since Aubrey doesn’t cook I’m afraid they will starve to death by the time I get back from wherever I’m going.

Some other plans I have in store for the near future is to attend the Schlafly Hop in the City and the At Home Dads Convention in Kansas City. So I’m working on trying to have a social calander again, wish me luck!

Yes, I’m still here. I just haven’t felt like sitting down and writing about my day to day activities lately. Since I bothered to write this maybe I’m over that and will get back to writing here again.

I don’t know what’s been wrong with me lately, I just don’t have much motivation to do anything. I can barely stay awake long enough into the evening to put Gavin to sleep and then after sleeping for 9 hours, wake up to a tired feeling in my eyes and head. I’m busy with Gavin every morning doing stuff so it hasn’t affected our time together but not much else is getting done.

The dishes keep piling up along with the laundry, the patio is being over run by grass and 6 foot tall weeds. I never feel like cooking dinner and I hope my lack of a shower schedule hasn’t bothered any of the people I see during the day. My guy friends that I hang out with every Tuesday night haven’t seen me in a month or so and when I finally get a weekend without Gavin its not as relaxing as it should be because it involves a 4 hour car trip back with a hangover.

Before I sat down and wrote this I did manage to start some laundry and run the dishwasher and am feeling a little better. Maybe I was just under pressure about all the things that needed to be done and instead of doing them I just kept looking at a giant mountain of stuff.

I’m thinking about going to the Stay at Home Dads Convention in Kansas City. Maybe a weekend away talking with other guys in the same situtation is what I need.